things I can never say out loud.
Saturday, April 4, 2009 // 12:23
Hello. I'm Gina, ppl reading dis of cos noe..
I'm the girl who always sit somewhere, being damn quiet, at most talking 2 some seniors n crazy ppl like (EVELINE, LIHUI, WEIXIANG) at times. Bcos I'm not sociable, only close 2 ppl who really wanna b my frens/r willing 2 b my frens, I hav vry few gd friends in school.
Most of them come from my primary sch frens, but I'm still quite close 2 them la.
My character is not addictive/special or funny lyk all the other ppl. That's y even though I lyk the ppl a lot, lyk the CCA a lot, I can't really say out those stuff I wanna say.
When ppl try 2 make frens wif me, talk 2 me, I always lyk.. end the conver vry quickly. But it's all bcos I dunno wad 2 say, n in the end, most just tink tt I'm sian/emo/dun wanna talk 2 them, and walk away. But it's not lyk tt de lo.
Even when I wanna thank a person wholeheartedly for helping me, or for being a gd fren to me, I can never say the words out. Too cheesy le la.. Hahas.
But some ppl still bear wif me, even though my low self esteem really make me think I suck a lot. Maybe I do, but thanks for tolerating me.
Now, hav 2 run for EXCO or presidency le. Even though I'm damn scared, I dunno hw 2 make the video/powerpoint sia. Why I lyk the cca, why I wanna b in exco, I can't really tink of reasons.. But I just feel tt I wan to.
Eveline says I sound so emo right nw -_- But den.. It's really hard 2 explain la. I dunno y I wanna b in exco (seniors'll probably say things lyk.. Okay.. She doesn't noe wad she's doing), but I really wanna b in it leh.
With Eveline, Lihui, Weixiang they all.
But cos I'm lyk.. always blur blur, indecisive, dunno wad 2 do, I can get into exco is a miracle le. And it's not even cfm-ed yet. Some oso say tt, I can get in bcos I gt backing wad, not cos I can do it.
Now seniors gonna step down le, they getting so frustrated over who 2 b president, who 2 kick out of exco. I dunno wad my fate will b la, but I can only do my best bah. Hahas....